Courage

I'm facing something alone right now and thinking about the past wishing I could talk about it with one I've lost. As I sit here trying to figure out what to say I watch the cursor blink. I think of family, friends, the community and know that I can not tell a soul. I've thought about talking to a friend in S about it but don't think he would keep my confidence. That I will not compromise on... as ridiculous as it sounds to type this and hit enter quickly will take a lot of courage. But it will make me feel a little better. I don't care if it's selfish or stupid. More than likely it will never be read & that is ok. The air. My best friend. Understanding. Wisdom. ..was going to try a poem but sleep is calling. Thinking of our talks, priorities, views on living, knowing we usually approach those the same..I picture telling you & your eyes. Watching your thought process working through the 'if you were in my position'.. big picture down the road.. I wish I could think of someone safe & have a set of arms to cry in. Sometimes you keep secrets out of love for those you love so very much. I will continue to think on these things.. & be strong for those that need me.. And hit enter.